Wednesday, March 13, 2002 :::
Another day goes by. Work has kept me busy these past couple of days, but tomorrow is payday. YES! There's no better way to start a day than to know a monetary compensation is headed your way.
Yesterday, the hours dragged on at work, but today, they went by fairly quickly. Thank God! ---Question: If the money is great, could I have a justifiable reason to complain about the snailing hours at the office? Which further brings me to: Is it possible to be happily dissatisfied? I am beginning to think that it is absolutely possible.
I believe it emerges from the formula for conformity. First you have a date between immediate need and settlement. Then you have the matrimony of such, which then produces conformity, which translates into happy dissatisfaction. ---The key variable for this formula is settlement. One must settle for something or someone, which no longer meets our needs, in order to achieve happy dissatisfaction. And, although some of us break free from conformity, others are not so lucky. Conformity produces a downward spiral on self-worth.
People apply conformity to: a situation that no longer appeals to them, is no longer needed, is a no-brainer in level of difficulty, or because of lack of self-worth. Since conformity doesn't provide satisfaction, an individual must desensitize his usual urge for satisfaction, and strain it down to a bare minimum. Therefore, settling for less than what (s)he deserves or had aspired, and still manage to be happy --happily dissatisfied.
Now, all is not lost for people, who currently live happily dissatisfied. Some do manage to break away from its crippling effect sooner or later, after months, years, decades, or scores. It all depends on their strength within.
